Un-expected

This is kind of a personal post, but I wanted to write about something that I am dealing with as of today..I just got my A-level results, and they were totally not what I expected. They were much lower than what I thought, and in one subject I got a U! I decided to write down what i’m feeling, and my thoughts, to help me work out what to make of the whole situation, and how to process it mentally.

Its hard not to think that because my grades were so bad, I am just not that intelligent, and to blame yourself for your own inadequacies. To think to yourself ‘what did I do wrong’ or what’s wrong with me?’, especially when I tried my best in the lead up to the exams and in the actual exams themselves. Like, if that was me at my best, and I still wasn’t good enough for even a pass, then I must be extremely incapable and lacking. But, just looking over this sentence I know in my own mind that I AM NOT UNINTELLIGENT, and I am capable. I am strong, and sharp, and as long I don’t lose faith in myself I will be fine. I can use this event to shape my future going forward, and push myself to do better, and achieve something I am proud of.

Another thing I am just considering, is how when other people that you know took the same A-levels as you did, and did much better, you again look at yourself at think, ‘why did I do so bad then, what’s wrong with me’? You just feel embarrassed and ashamed, and it’s not a good time for your self esteem.

But you just have to REMEMBER, you’re in control of your future from here on out, and if you don’t like how this particular situation went, the YOU have to work to change it, and improve and make something of yourself. And who knows, this can actually push you to go even further than you would have without it!

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Canal Life

One of the things I love about where I live is that, just a 5 minute drive down the road, you enter the British countryside full of fields and sunflowers. On weekends, if we’re just at home, my family and I like to drive down to Mercia Marina and just walk alongside the canal.

There is plenty to do here as just recently a HUGE complex was built overlooking the marina, providing not only everything a canal-dweller would need from clothes to supplies for travelling the waterway, and even a pampering beauty parlor!, but also a canal visitor like ourselves. You can trawl the boutiquey (is that a word?hehe) shops and see whats on offer, my personal fave being the beautiful home interior shop called Zing Interiors. Or, you can have an afternoon snack in the coffee shop, and pick up something from the farm shop that’s with it! In the evenings, there is a lovely, classy place to dine in which looks marvellous when all the lights are on.

However, the best thing about going down to the marina is the canal itself. It is always so tranquil and peaceful, and it is so fun to look at all the canal boats lined up along the deck. Each one has its own individuality, and history and stories attached to it. The all look completely different, with bright colours and names. The canal also offers canal boat rides too! So you can hop onto one and take a trip along the marina and get a taste of life on the waterways, and an insight into canal life!

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If you want more information on anything I mentioned, here’s a link to Mercia Marina’s website Mercia Marina .

The Secret Garden

So recently there has been a craze in ‘adult-colouring’ books, which are basically, well…colouring books for adults. :))

I loved colouring when I was little and  I admit that, until recently, I actually just used to colour in normal, children’s, colouring books. But then I saw these beautiful books, ones like Johanna Basford’s, and I loved the big, detailed pages  full of different patterns. She has quite a few different books that you can choose from. I myself have The Secret Garden, that one was my favourite.

 

And there are loads of other ones as well, little ones that you can take with you whilst travelling on trains for example, or ones full of just Mandalas that you can colour in. I even saw a Game of Thrones colouring book for those who are fans!

The main idea behind these books it that they’ve been made with the concept of being helpful with stress-relieving/mindfulness. These books aim to be helpful in de-stressing, calming down, that sort of thing. I think this is great!, but even if you don’t have some major issues, or stress, then for those of you who just want to have a little time-out from technology, and relax for a little while, maybe do something creative without getting all ‘Picasso up in here!’ then these are also great.

There’s something comforting about simply focusing on nothing other than whether to colour in those leaves in using dark green or light green, and whether to use a felt-tip or a colour pencil to fill this pattern in. Even just shading in a page with a pencil, at the end of a loong day, can be enough.

 

 

One in a Million

I am one amongst the millions of teenagers/young adults at the moment who are part of the sensation revolving around bloggers and youtubers. And I think it’s great! I love watching videos, am a huge consumer of youtube videos, and I just find it relaxing to watch one(or, lets face it, several) of my fave vloggers going through their day, or their wardrobe, or whatever it may be! This is why I think a lot of people feel, and why we watch youtube, and what I love about it personally. It’s just a good way to chill out!

There are so many regular high school students, college or uni students, and even post uni people out there, that just decided one day to start, and just take that chance, and launch their own media platform. I have seen youtubers like Zoella, IntheFrow, LucyandLydia and just felt like ‘I would love to do this!’. But then there are also times when I feel like this field is too filled with so many people out there trying, not to copy, but to take inspiration, and do a similar thing, and express their own thoughts, ideas and takes on things. And no one will even see mine, so what’s the point?! But I don’t really mind if that is the case, I simply want to put my thoughts down, and push myself a little creatively speaking!

So here I am at 11:00 in the morning, in my living room, as an A-level student working from home. This I think is what is good, is that I work from home, I am in the house with free time quite often, so I might as well make use of that and just do it!

I have been thinking/pondering/yearning on this blogging thing, and if I think too long then that creative spark, that hit of inspiration, dies and I end up not going and making that first post on here. I actually made the blog, and came up with the name, which I’m pretty proud of if I do say so myself ;)) -a few months ago! And I kept waiting for an early morning, when it was the right time and I knew just what to write. I guess right now  I just thought i’d like to write about the longing I felt to start something, and just get my thoughts out there, just to see if anyone else felt the same.